I turn to the sunrise.

I will say it with the soft sunrise.  With a dog on my hip, a cat on my legs, things to do just out of reach of the blankets atop me.  With my heart.

I always knew this day would come.  I always knew. 

Can you see me walking away?  Towards someone else?

Hy in the sunrise

Hy in the sunrise 2

Hy in the sunrise 3

Hy in the sunrise 5

Hy in the sunrise 4

Hy in the sunrise 6

Hy in the sunrise 7

Hy in the sunrise 10

I usually felt alone anyway.

A 40-something single mother who writes honestly about sex, body image, D/s, relationships, her nervous tics, and how much she loves to fucking fuck. She also likes to show you her tits.

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22 thoughts on “I turn to the sunrise.
  1. Not easy to walk away at times, even when feeling you ae basically alone anyway. But if you don’t walk toward something, you’ll never get where you want to be. Whoever chances the meet along that path should feel honored, you are stunning.
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  2. I LOVE what you learned and realized in you 7 week post. A thought about the guy you are meeting tonight. First a confession from me: I’ve never taken a pic of my boobs and sent it to a guy…I have taken a couple of pics of my bottom half with some panties on and sent them. But with that said, it doesn’t mean I won’t ever send a pic of my boobs if he was the right guy and he asked. So because the guy says he’s NEVER gonna send penis pics, I think that is a reflection of his upbringing and what he thinks is right (and as we know, we all have different opionions of right and wrong). You will know as soon as you meet him if there is any chemisty, and a I guess a thought I have is if your heart skips a beat when you see him, give him a chance. After a few dates, you can tell him why penis pics are important to you….and if he doesn’t understand then, you are off to find someone who does. =)
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    1. That’s true, but I found it odd that he’d say that all the same… I’m not all that hopeful these days regardless. No one is TN, despite all that I’ve learned about us. He is still a wonderfully, sweet, and sexy man who took care of me in lots of important ways. *sigh*

      1. I agree, it’s hard to be hopeful all the time, but I guess what’s important is that we have more days with hope than without hope. And I hear ya about TN, that’s why many breakups are so hard =(
        So I’m WAY curious, how did last night go? If you are going to write a post about it, I’ll patiently wait. =)
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  3. Sadly beautiful yet stunning, both your words & sun kissed images. Sounds like you’ve passed by the bottom of that trough & on your way back up the other side. Good luck beautiful lady.

  4. Meeting new people scares the shit out of me. Good luck to you. Be kind to yourself. TN was a great friend but not a great companion in all the ways that mattered. You deserve more :). And I’m sure you’ll get it.

    1. I’m ok with meeting new people, it’s just what I do after that that I struggle with. I didn’t find TN through “dating” and it terrifies me that I won’t find someone. Not in a “I can’t be alone!” kind of way, just that it’s exhausting and eventually very depressing… I certainly hope to find what I’m looking for.

  5. Hy,

    Seems that darkness surrounds many of us at present. Sunlight seems to penetrate the outer shell and insert warmth into the heart just as gray skies bring the cold. I chose to seek the sun and know that it is merely veiled by the clouds. The warmth is still there.

    Savannah and I are thinking of you as we go through our own challenges. You are not alone.

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