I used to use this blog to share my images and then Instagram entered my life. I poured all my efforts into building a follower base and grew to 50k followers in 18 months. Then the shadowbanning began in 2016 and I’ve struggled to grow ever since. It’s not that fun over there anymore.
It’s bullshit and sexist and elitist and the rules change and the algorithms change and unless you’re some kind of benign nobody or a super sex-charged celebrity you have no rights. We are the product, after all.
And so I’ve pulled away since the most recent shadowban from when I posted a text exchange with someone who wanted to buy a date with me and I cheekily said “$10,000. Maybe and only if you’re cute and no sex.” And then wrote commentary on the economics of sex and dating.
Clearly a joke, someone reported it anyway and it was removed and the shadowban started all over again. I lost 250 followers within a day and a half and 2 months later I still haven’t reclaimed them.
I don’t give a fuck anymore. I pop in, I connect a little, I leave. I made friends I hope to know forever there, my “portfolio” will live on and I will continue to curate it to some degree, but that season has passed for me. I need to be back here.
This month of writing here has reminded me how much I love this blog and all of you. I can’t wait to clear out some space and comment on everyone’s incredible Sinful Sunday images, read everything that y’all have written with me in June, and even do another Share Our Shit Saturday.
And I want to use it to share my “photography” – I have to use quotations because I’m hard pressed to call hand-held naked selfies “photography” – because this is where I can be wholly myself without fear of a reprimand and time out.
So if all goes according to my hopes and dreams, you’ll be seeing a lot more of me around here. In all ways.