One minute it was there: real, wonderful, delicious in its lingering scent. Like a garden around the corner in full bloom.
And then, as if swept away on a breeze, it was long past me and the space between us convinced him he was wrong: it was nothing to pursue or look forward to with me.
He had decided he would cancel our date tonight and any further engagements.
The Magical Sub was not so magical after all.
And I was right.
I choked on tears in the car when I got the first warning text at 12:30 expressing his reservations. I was headed to the grocery store to buy supplies. I sat in the parking lot instead and replied, calmly and warmly. Four hours later he finally confirmed he’d had a change of heart.
No matter, really.
I’d driven straight home and crawled under my covers in my workout clothes and cried off and on into my pink velvet pillow shams for the rest of the afternoon.
The house was a mess and there was no food. I’d gone to no trouble. Fuck him. Fuck it.
I didn’t respond to his last text apologizing and saying he felt like an asshole. Well, yeah. You should. Not going to argue with you; I’m going to walk away with my head held high, tyvm.
Prior to this afternoon he’d excitedly asked me about my rope skills and sent drooling emojis about seeing me again. There were lots of warm smiles and exclamations from him.
I guess the bright cold winter air sobered him up.
I can’t quite understand why I even keep trying, to be honest. Such a waste of my everything.
My last Sinful Sunday of the year. Click below for everyone else!
Oh, Hy. 💔 That’s so disappointing! I had a similar experience last month with someone who seemed so right on every way…and then he suddenly changed his mind after a magical first date. It still guts me to think about it.
Thinking of you.
Oh, Hy. My hope for you is good connections for you in 2019. You so deserve it.
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His flaking out is NOT a referendum on your value. It tells you something about him, and nothing whatsoever about you.
Oh for goodness sake, what a bell end. Sorry this was a shitty end to 2018. More power to you in 2019 xx
He’s a douchebag, sweet Hy, and like Zoë said, it says everything about him and nothing about you. I hope 2019 will be the year you find that special person.
Rebel xox
How old was this guy?
Did he engage in this previously?
The guy probably had someone he was lieing too. I have been there and not as long ago I wished it was. Actually, I didn’t come right out and lie. No one ask me about what was going on with me. I rationalized. I was saved from making a decision that would have been bad no matter what it was. Distance (and Donald Trump) made is easy to live without what I knew I should live without anyway.
Phillip
Perhaps you should consider that every ‘nyet’ isn’t a rejection, but perhaps a deliverance placed into the road by your Fairy Domme Mother.
Phillip
2019 should really be your year. You deserve it more than most. As us Aussies say you’re a cracking shiela and you really deserve to be happy. It’s a shame our countries are so far apart.
And your everything is something special…..and he is a total asswipe
Mollyx
The perfect pic to show him what he is missing. Sending you lots of hugs Xx
Oh Hy. This is all about him and nothing about you. I hope 2019 brings you happiness xx