Being prey.

So much has changed for me since my inaugural post nearly ten years ago.  Back then I was a fresh and perky 36 yo who had just left her husband and had a small, preschool-aged child to care for.  That woman was desperate for attention, love, affection, and sex.  She was also a shriveled, sad, […]

It’s been 12 weeks and a day.

I have so much to say because it’s been 12 weeks and 1 day since I last wrote something here.  I’ve missed it and I’ve not missed it.  It’s in me, always, a ticker-tape of thoughts and plots and stories to share. I’ve been buried in work and life and my baby.  Sorting through years […]

Friday, August 16th, is Boobday!

Holyyyyy shit. Another intense week. I reopened Bumble and feel strong and potent and ready to fuck. Easy come, easy go. We’ll see what I can manage next week. And… I texted The Golfer. He replied. Three whole times even!! Lol He’s the last one who texted and I’ll just let that hang for a […]

It’s been 23 years.

This isn’t even remotely a sexy post.  My life is filled with less “sexy” these days and a lot more thinking.  I can’t find anyone I’m attracted to, first of all, and secondly, no one seems worth my time.  So I’m just going to write what’s in my heart instead. I remember standing at the […]

Friday, August 9th, is Boobday!

I continue to have my psychic tantrum on a rather large scale, but seem to be fooling everyone that I’m perfectly normal. I guess that’s good? I’ve been sad about Peter and The Golfer. Sad about Peter because that was a relationship I counted on. Sad about TG for reasons less obvious to me. But […]

A month of celibacy, possibly more.

I haven’t had sex since June 22nd.  I have a period tracker I’ve been using for years to mark my sexual activity and all of July was e m p t y.  I had one tryst at a guy’s office that was hot, but it wasn’t sex.  We were both in the middle of our […]

A quiet morning.

I woke up this morning to quiet, a stillness. No one was texting me and – more importantly- no was not texting me. I told The Golfer last week that I was busy for two weeks and would hit him up when I got free again. This morning I realized I could see him tonight, […]

See what’s in my Inbox.

First, I would like to like to say that this post is dedicated to Ferns in honor of her Day of Birth.  She is my friend, my Fairy Domme-mother, and an inspiration to us all on how to have and hold boundaries, be open and communicative, and be damn funny. Second, I would like to […]

It’s been quite the month.

I know I’ve said I’ve cleared things out of my life before, but I’ll be the first to admit I never really did.  I’d always have some hanger-on, some dude whose bad manners and nice dick lingered on the peripheries of my consciousness, but this time I have truly swept it all away. I officially […]

Tantrums.

I don’t know how else to describe what I’ve been going through except a psychic tantrum on all fronts. I feel unmoored, terrified, emboldened, devastated, excited, powerful, overwhelmed, gleeful and lost. Yeah…. It started when Pey left town with my ex for the two-week trip they usually do each year together at the end of […]