Fighting it all.

I feel tears somewhere in my throat, or maybe packed deep behind my face.  If I allowed myself to sit with my feelings they would be there, but I don’t have the time or the space.  I should be working right now, but I recognized the pull to pour it out, so here I am […]

It’s time for quiet now.

Just a few things running through my mind today: Working out for three months, moving, shopping for new furniture, my career, friends, Mens, sex and losing it, drinking, loneliness, excitement, determination, hope, warmth, longing, anger that I keep seeing my fucking ex-boyfriend everywhere I go on my apartment property, why I care that The Golfer […]

It’s time for quiet now.

Just a few things running through my mind today: Working out for three months, moving, shopping for new furniture, my career, friends, Mens, sex and losing it, drinking, loneliness, excitement, determination, hope, warmth, longing, anger that I keep seeing my fucking ex-boyfriend everywhere I go on my apartment property, why I care that The Golfer […]

Worth the 20 bucks.

Pooh-pooh Amazon dresses all you want, but this dress delivers. I wore it last night for drinks with The Vet and it ended up in a pool on his bedroom floor next to his. It was like The Rapture. We didn’t have sex – he had whiskey dick and I passed out – but apparently […]

Clarity.

My sister sent 2/3 of her kids out to stay with me and my folks last minute yesterday. I was in the middle of the beginning of a posh meal with an old friend and ex-lover, Zed, when my step dad asked what time I was coming over. I side stepped my assholery and killed […]

I’m thick and needy.

Curvy as fuck. See my bruises?? ON MY ARM, you pervert! Baby bruise right there. You are invited to the Inlinkz link party! Click here to enter

I’m just a fool who wants to be loved.

So Peter has kidney stones. And the pain was so great, the trauma so overwhelming, he couldn’t text me until after he’d gotten his ex girlfriend to drive him home this morning. Never mind he was en route to my house and I texted worried and freaked out several times. And before I heard from […]

We’re all just here to hurt one another.

I’m in a mood.  A bad mood. I spent another magical night with The Golfer last night – our eighth since February.  He’d texted to confirm that morning that he would be too busy to hang out and said he didn’t want to disappoint me by making plans.  Two hours later he took it all […]

Friday, May 21st, is Boobday!

Yay!  I remembered Boobday!  Small wins.  Though I did forget to post on Tuesday and just played it off with a nice e[lust] post. I haven’t taken any pics in days.  The married man has been away at a work thing and he’s been entirely MIA today – which is not what I expected.  But […]

I’m invisible.

When it’s quiet, it’s a roar. Stillness doesn’t suit me, yet I’m certain it fits like a glove. Goddamn I wish someone loved me – even a little. I keep seeing men from my past who swore they weren’t interested in a girlfriend Now, with girlfriend! I am like a stinky cheese. I sound decadent, […]