Not having orgasms or sex has cleared my head.

My head, it’s clear. My phone chimed Sunday morning to tell me The Neighbor and 4 am girl  broke up. … Saturday night he was on my couch seeking support and counsel. He was depressed and confused. I sat there with cheap white wine on my breath wondering what I was supposed to do. All […]

I won’t lie to you. Even when I want to.

I started this blog 7 months ago in an attempt to wrangle my life back into something resembling balance.  I didn’t have an idea of what that looked like, I just knew that having sex with up to 4 different men in a single week wasn’t it.  Would it look like having 3 steady mean […]

I get help from my friends.

I’m going to go out by myself later and I asked for advice from one I trust implicitly.  I have this feeling that 4 am girl is coming over tonight to stay with The Neighbor (he’s been over at her place four nights in a row; it makes sense she’d come tonight).  And I want […]

I can’t figure shit out. And still I’m talking about it.

Thursday night The Neighbor and I fucked each other’s brains out.  Friday night I went out with friends and stayed out all night.  I came home at 10:30 am and TN’s car wasn’t in the parking lot.  He’d stayed out all night, too.  Saturday he came home around noon and his car was there when […]

I backslide.

He called me while I was with my softball team celebrating our last game of the season. When was I coming home? He wanted to know. Soon, is what I said. Home, a little drunk and a lot horny I knocked on his door. He’d be over in a minute. I showered, put on a […]

When everyone wants you, it’s like no one does.

I am an average looking woman.  I am neither tall, nor short, fat, nor slim.  I’m no genius, but I can  read people; I have a sharp wit, but prefer to turn it on myself.  I am generous, but discerning; loving, but terrified.  I am broken and weird and over-sexed. I can’t figure out why […]

I can’t help but take pics of myself in the morning.

Good morning, Internet boyfriend. I hope this sext finds you well. I am very lonely and sad that I don’t have any real boyfriends with whom to share my pics. The Neighbor would generally have been the recipient of this shot. Speaking of whom, I watched a movie with him last night. He ordered us […]

Neither of us could resist.

I got wasted last night. So charming, I know. I texted The Neighbor and Downstairs Neighbor to come over. My typos are hilarious, my enthusiasm embarrassing. But, they both came over and TN stayed longer. I mouthed off some theories I had about him which he, of course, refuted. He said he simply didn’t have […]

I won’t be talking about it anymore.

It’s finally over. Thankfully. And I feel good about it. Strong. I’ve said my piece, he’s heard me, took it like a man. When I learned that he really is trying to date 4 am girl I told him I was out, that I wouldn’t fuck him if he was fucking her or anyone else, […]

I tremble and cum and walk the plank.

Sunday was a big day for me and my heart.  I made love to the man I love for the first time ever.  I said goodbye, I said hello, I turned myself over, and most importantly, I felt solid.  The ship was no longer pitching; I’d found my sea legs. I worried about him all […]